傻孩子． 开始新的习惯吧．

傻孩子．
开始新的习惯吧．
习惯．每天一个人生活．
习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．
习惯．走过熟悉的路．面对熟悉的景．
你逃不掉．逃不掉的．
那么．就勇敢面对．现实．
现实是．一切．画上了句点．

傻孩子．
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．
这也是你．成长中的你．
这个你．正在逐渐死去．
新的你．即将重生．
寻你的路．你的未来．
你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．
做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

傻孩子．
好．好．尽情发泄吧．
剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．
泄完了．就要振作．
看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．
还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．
所以．你并不孤独．
正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

傻孩子．
别哭．别再哭．
不值得．真的．不值得了．
把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．
开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．
做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

傻孩子．
生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．
别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．
你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．
现在的生活．不是你想要的．
为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．
给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

现在我对你很好、很好、很好，你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。。。。
当某天，你被伤害，想起我。你就会明白了。。。。。。。。。。。


好好的对待对方是最好的，以后的时间是很长的，既然缘分让你们相交，记得珍惜。。。

送给还在坚持的人们，，，，，，，
有时候放手了，，，，
可能你就轻松一些了。。。。
记得要让自己高兴。。。。。。。。。

P/S: 谢谢远方的PW送来这篇文章来抚慰受伤的心灵

想哭就哭吧！

哭吧，哭吧，想哭就哭吧！
用力地哭，使劲地哭吧，
就好像自己不曾哭过，
把悲伤用力哭出来吧，
把失望用力哭出来吧，
把痛苦用力哭出来吧，
就让眼泪占据整张脸吧 ，

反正也不差这一次。

骂吧，骂吧，想骂就骂吧！
疯狂地让自己撕心俱裂地呐喊吧，
把心中的痛给骂出来，
把心中的伤给骂出来，
把心中的挣扎与深深的无奈、愚蠢、没有结果的漫长期待给骂出来，

反正也不差这一次。

没用的，一点也没用。

感觉连呼吸都是悲痛的。

感觉连说话都是悲痛的。

感觉连活着都是悲痛的。

感觉连进食都是悲痛的。

哭

哭了

又哭了

狠狠地哭吧！让可怜的眼泪暂时与自己为伴。

心 痛 。 。 。

慢活一天，过滤杂质

前些日子，活的很“赶” ，
趁今天有空，想慢活一天，
让自己沉淀一下下，
让一些“杂质” 过滤出来…

今早到facebook游一游之后，
打算让这个废置已久的部落格复活。
又快吃到香香的汤圆了，
一年“咻” 一声似的要说bye bye啦。
曾经狠狠地哭过、骂过、被伤过、叹息、狂笑、“手舞足蹈”….

今年过得不算非常如意，但有时候竟然也能“绝处逢生” ！

原以为被逼放弃了我生平的第一次舞蹈表演，难过…T_T
但是脚却奇迹般地好了起来。
终于赶在表演来到之前回到studio报到！
脚好了之后，就拼了命地练舞。
练得很痛快！

第二次表演机会又再次眷顾，
开心又难忘，让我大开眼界… ^_^
也顺便让我过一过香车美人瘾，感受了Ferrari的触感。

接着妈妈进院，
进进出出医院好几次，
眼看第三次表演机会就快飞走了 T_T，
妈妈的一句话，
才让我的生命没有遗憾，
如愿地上台留下我的舞迹 ^_^

自从接触了我热爱的舞蹈之后，
慢慢的发现自己蛮幸运的，趁年轻发掘自己的喜好，
是一件让人感到满足的美事…
听着，
轻快活泼的cha cha节奏，
浪漫优美的rumba旋律，
又或者热情奔发的samba，
心情也变得轻轻快快的…飘飘的…舒服。


学舞，只因自己爱上它。
它能让你成为别人的焦点。

(虚荣心作祟，但是也要跳得好才行，我真的还需要很多很多的努力) 。
它能让你觉得女生的消遣并不只是典型的“逛街购物，看戏，上网撒网，spa & facial.”
离“好”的标准还很远…很远…

能不能更上一层楼，除了自己要争气努力以外，
还有一些因素是我所不能掌握的( K，你明白我的意思吧？)
但是为了自己的兴趣，我还是会继续地“手舞足蹈” 下去。


J, 我虽然手长脚长
要不是你的轻视，我也许也不会跳下去。
你的负面反应与评语，激发了我的正面动力。
之前你觉得我做不到，我偏偏就做到了！
手长脚长也能跳舞的噢！(虽然我没有180，但是却偏偏就是比你高哟！)

暗笑…狂笑


还有 L，
不好意思，那晚确实是有不少男生向我搭讪亲近，
你妒忌也好，眼红也罢。
虽然我不是国色天香，但是我可不比你差哟！
我以为你是个热心肠的“ 好”朋友，但是我不得不承认我是看走眼了。
惺惺做态的模样，我看了真的很倒胃口。
还好紧急煞车，没与你交心。
对不起，我确实是比你抢眼的…要不是你的明讽与暗刺，我还不晓得呢！谢啦！


继续暗笑…又再狂笑一番


常常满口大道理，满口佛理，满口宣扬自己的义举善行的人，
未必是个懂得善待他人的人，
自己身有屎，却还要恶人先告状，令人血压狂飙。
却自以为是个“好” 人。
可悲也可恶。


WW， BY，PW
你们都是我的好朋友，能够让我放心地与你们交心的好朋友。
虽然你们都离我很远…很想念你们…
唉…叹十声

WW，谢谢你的鼓励与安慰，
当我伤心失落的时候，你在遥远的另一方听我诉苦，给我鼓励。

BY，你也是个难得的好朋友。
每每觉得毫无希望的事，你总是帮我想很开！
(是真的有希望吗？真的吗？你该知道我指的是哪件事吧？？)
还有，你若再不来facebook落脚的话，我就要打你咯！拜托啦！


PW，你也是一个善良的朋友。
我的秘密糗事伤心事，你也知道的不少。
对我来说，你是一个值得交心的知己。


写着写着，
心情也跟着舒缓了一些，
接下来的日子，或许会更令人烦躁，忙碌…
同事拿假一个月(based on这样也可以的“ 理由”)，我就得受苦，天理何在…唉
心里超不爽的，暗骂一遍，不…是很多遍！！讨厌！
为了五斗米，还是得继续折腰。唉


生命是短暂的，
应该把握一切美好的事物，
不好的就算了吧，
可以开心就尽量开心吧！
(但愿我每次都能做到)
加油吧！

XOXO

Feeling Blue...

My Oh My! My foot has not recovered yet…
How it can get infected?
Doctor has no idea, neither do i..
Pain, antibiotic, pain killer…
I’m praying...wishing it will recover soon
Why it is still looking swollen...

Worrying….

Blue… T_T
I can’t go to work,
I can’t go to practice my performance dance,
And can’t I go to perform on stage as well???
Pls…

I was supposed to perform on stage in May,
BUT it was cancelled suddenly.

I once had a chance to take part in dance competition in Sept,
BUT I can’t take part bcoz I can’t find a dance partner.
My teacher also failed to find one for me.

I’m supposed to perform on stage in this coming August,
BUT here comes the foot problem.
I hate it!
I’ve been practicing the performance dance all these while,
Now all wasted…

Most probably i will be losing the chance to perform on stage again...

I wish I could have a speedy recovery.
Speedy enough to let me return to my dancing class.
Speedy enough to let me return to the dance floor to perform what I’ve learnt so far.
Speedy enough to let me release my worries about my wound.
Speedy enough to let me to return to my workplace.
Speedy enough to let me to go to wherever i want to...

I wish I could...

[生日快乐]

生日一定要快乐

愿你永远幸福快乐

年轻~美丽依旧~嘿嘿

会的...

你一定会幸福的

请你一定要幸福

希望幸福就在不远处...

在期盼着它的再次眷顾，一直到永远...

既使不确定，但是我相信

耐心点吧！

加油吧！

加油~加油~再加油！

Personal Make Up Lesson 3

Lesson 3 is about learning how to do the “哈日妆”. Actually, this make up is not suitable for me with a big round shape face. But this is included as a package in the course I am taking now. So here I come… As usual, I hv to start the make up with the following steps which I learned from Miko…

1) trim your eyebrow

2) double eyes lid sticker if you want to make eyes looking bigger and “eye catching”

3) apply make up base

4) apply highlight base on my T-zone and use it to cover up your “black eye circle” (must do it gently and lightly for even application, else you will create few more fine lines around your eyes)

5) apply foundation

6) curl your eye lashes

7) eye liner

8) loose powder all over your face. You can apply more on below ur eyes, so that it will be easier to remove the excess eye shadow powder later by using the big powder brush

9) eyes shadow ( firstly apply eyes make up base, then followed by some shimmering white pearl powder, silver eye shadow and light shimmering blueish eye shadow, it is pretty hard for me. I will certainly fail on this part)

10) some white matte eye shadow to “clean up” the outer area of my eye shadow. Remove the excess eye shadow powder by using the big powder brush .

11) Re-apply eye liner if needed.

12) Shaping my eye brow with eye brow powder and eye brow shaping pencil ( Tips : For those who have big round face like I do, pls try not to draw ur eye brow too long and thin ( it’s a big NO), else it will make ur face looking much more fuller and bigger!)

See this, it is quite flaunting and thick!!

13) Fake eye lashes ( here comes the tricky part, you must be very be careful and make sure you “aim” at the “right spot” before the eye glue dries out. The way you hold your fake eye lashes is very crucial too. Make sure the length is right for you by cutting it with scissor before you put it on) 14) Apply mascara for upper and lower eye lashes and use the “zig zag” motion as the ending motion

15) re-apply loose powder ( ur make up can last for longer hours)

16) pinky blush ( dun be too heavy)

17) light pinky pearl lip gloss.. Voolaaa...Done!!!

“哈日妆” requires heavy make up on your eyes. It emphasize on the eye make up. As the matter of fact, I’m not really into this “哈日妆” ….Yet, I’m still happy with it. Usual photo shooting moments of taking photos after the class!

one more photo with Miko before leaving the class!

I’m looking forward to the next lesson. Smoky eyes..here I come...

XOXO

Leaving a note for my last weekend activities

I’m supposed to blog about my Personal Make Up Lesson 2, right? Those who had read my blog on my Personal Make Up Lesson 1. Anyway I won’t blog much on Lesson 2 this time. U will know why after u scrolling down on this page.Well as for my lesson 2, I hv learned about “transparent make up”. U may ask, “what is that ???”
Actually I should have taken photos to explain more on this but Damn, my camera batteris went flat that day. I should be scolded for being so forgetful to charge batteries before going to class. I know I know. But I was really in rush that day…Serve me right! See… now I can only explain in words, sigh…


Previously, I did mention about the casual make up. The only difference between the casual and “transparent” is the eye shadow. The casual make up does not need any eye shadow. As long as u hv done a great job on your eye liner and mascara, ur eyes can already be very “eye catching” without any eye shadow. BUT as for transparent make up, u will need to apply some shimmering eyes shadow to make ur eye lid glows in colour. It glows in colour but not too flaunting. The way to apply to eye shadow is critical too.

Question : Since it is so called “transparent make up”, why does it need to apply eyes shadow leh?? Got any big difference with the casual make up meh??
Answer : Beats Me!! Ok la, I will ask Miko why in the next lesson..

Anyway, I still managed to grab a few pic to show over here. Thanks Miko for taking photo by using hp. I know these few photos could not even show how my make up looks like due to the pic quality... Well, better than none ….i shall move on to the next talking point since no more pic can be shown, ppl start yawning alr..

Soon after the make up lesson, I went for dinner with ST. We had Kimchi steamboat dinner in a Taiwanese restaurant. But the food sucks!!

ST just came back from Vietnam trip and he bought me souvenir. It is made in Vietnam. It looks cute to me. Why is that so? See, I hv 3 Miss Vietnam in my perfume collection. ->>> Miss Hanoi, Miss Hue, and Miss Saigon with their traditional hat and costume respectively.

Thanks! ST. I like it much...

Right after my dinner with ST, I went to attend for my dancing class. Here are some pic taken while waiting for the class to start…ngiak nigiak…never forget to take photo @ anywhere, anytime as long as u feel good about yourself…
stay tuned...i'll be back...XOXO